I've always been comfortable with going through life experiences knowing that what I was learning about myself and the journey would in some way help others. I'm a sharer, there's no point in things staying the same, there wouldn't be much to share. That would be boring and I don't do bored very well.
Never, in all of my X number of years on this planet have I had such a long period of learning, back to back classes, with no break for lunch. Not even a loo break. The past 12 months has taught me.... gosh, where do I start?.... PATIENCE!!! That's a good start. I'm a 'make things happen' sort of girl but no amount of ticking off 'to do' lists has been able to get me to where I wanted. Resilience - I didn't think I could flex any more!! Accepting solitude - I quite like my own company.... however, too much of anything can get uncomfortable. Grit - you could sand an oak tree with the amount of grit I have developed this year. To 'Let it go!' - now I've put that song from 'Frozen' in your head and you'll be singing it all night long... sorry!!
What I have clearly come to realise is that sometimes no amount of doing, manifesting, meditating, wishing, praying, crying, ignoring, eating, will get you what you want when there are several people involved in the realisation of the dream. I/we can't control the uncontrollable. We can only work with ourselves and it pays to only give attention to those things in our life that lift us up and bring us joy. We need to work with what we have already, not the lack of what we don't.
I remember at school thinking that 99.9% of what we learned there we probably wouldn't use again (that was with my 16 year old hat on). As a grown-up I know that there was more to school than what was written in our exercise books. Good old hind sight! I look forward to looking backwards on this journey. Then I will share my story, when I have reached the happily ever after bit.